Caution: Taking the time to reflect on where you are, how you got there and where you would like to be may result in weak knees and the awareness of lemons flying at your crown from out of nowhere. However, doing so is necessary. We all must perform self-evaluations. I mean, the world around you evaluates you every millisecond of each day; might as well get to know your true self. If you don’t, you could miss the opportunity to dodge a fast pitched lemon and find yourself searching for your crown, instead of sipping on a cool drink of lemonade that you made from it. Champagne splitz in my bag…SWAG.
Face the “makings of you” with courage, LOVE and open arms. There can be only one you and everything that you have encountered and endured has made you the force to be reckoned with that you are today. Be fierce, fearless, faith-filled and forever in flight…growing stronger daily.
I don’t care that it took Beyonce’s Formation to light the fire for you Queens, just keep it burning with your self-awareness and self-love. No matter how the day ends, you will be a part of it so make your position a powerful one. Don’t lose yourself. If you do, you have lost it all. Sip that. 😉 #IJQ365
Now that I am no longer in denial, I can say with the utmost certainty that I Invited you into my life 5 years ago. Unbeknownst to me that you had many names, names that I did not know were yours; names such as lover, friend, significant other, love of my life and so many more. It was with that invitation that I allowed you to poison my heart, mind, body and soul with your lies and false hopes; as well as fake promises of a wonderful life together. There were never any intentions for a partnership, team building or love. There was only a quiet competition; a competition in which you will never be a worthy competitor.
Every time you remove yourself or I remove you, I leap forward three levels. I used to think that praying for your death would keep me from being blessed, so I decided to become more specific and pray that your existence would become dead to me, and so it is.
It is with thankfulness, goodness And gracious mercy from
God, that I can say that your position in my life is finally proper… Behind me, and beneath my feet. It is very comforting to know that your trip back to the place from whence you came is not only one way, but it is eternal.
May you reap all that you deserve. No love lost, only self-love gained.
My Letter to Lucifer from “Open Invitation to My Soul…poetry, letters and lyrics from the soul of a Queen.” (c) 2015 By Q. Humphrey
“Thanks to wisdom, tears are transformed into food that feeds the promise of a better day.”
Living according to the standards and expectations of others is like living in a prison. The pressures of meeting and exceeding those expectations can stifle your breathing and cause you to lose yourself. Today, I say realize that we are all different and beautifully crafted in our individuality. I say to you, set your own realistic expectations and be joyous while striving to meet and exceed those. You will always fail when trying to please others, and if you are not happy and at peace with yourself, actions and decisions that aren’t causing you harm in any way, you will never be free. With loving, and expressing ourselves comes a great amount of freedom. The result is often the feeling of floating, because there is no unnecessary, unwarranted weight to carry and shackle you. Apply this liberty to your day-to-day living and find peace with the fact that you can’t make everyone happy, and being judged and talked about is inevitable. This is the price of stepping outside the box. But if those around you truly love you… well, your happiness and peace will be all that matters. Be you and love it! IJQ 😉
Peace, Love and Empowerment!
As sure as we need air to breathe, life happens. I am finding it most refreshing to have the understanding now that when life happens, you do what you can and step aside. The hardest lesson for me to learn was the “cast your cares” lesson. Knowing when to let go and let God has always been a challenge for me. So, after years of going fast and getting nowhere; after all of the exhaustion from the constant stress from failed plans “I” executed…I had a shutdown. Not a breakdown, a shutdown. I consciously hit a brick wall where growth was concerned. So hungry for success and drained from just knowing what the preparation entailed, I poorly prioritized.
Ironic how a project manager mismanaged her life, isn’t it? During my shutdown, I realized that I was starving for freedom; a freedom that only comes through peace. I cannot pin point the date and time of this release, but it wasn’t long after I decided to make a commitment to the one who has never let me down and who has been more patient and loving to me than I have ever been to myself. I committed to making my Father God first and foremost in my life. It is so easy to say that He is first, but how you handle life and whether or not you let life handle you confirms if He is where He needs to be. I gave up talking the talk to walk the walk.
I glanced back on the past year of my life briefly and said, “Not another day will I have the losing hand!” I commanded authority over my life, the goals and dreams to come to fruition, the dedication and discipline to be unwavering…like my faith in the Lord. I decided to take a firm stand, not just make a choice. I took a stand against the poor priority management that made provision for petty, distracting, non-conducive thoughts, behaviors, activities, etc. that were eating away at my productivity and my life.
We ALL have them or have had them in our lives at one time or another, whatever or whoever they are/were. Unable to breathe and choking off the false-image of what I thought was wonderful and alright with the world, I reached for fresh air. I reached out for the Word of Life. If you ever hit that brick wall and ask “How did I get here?” Immediately answer yourself with the following question, “Isn’t it more than Amazing, that my God loves me anyway and that He is still here?!”
I’m learning through my spiritual studies and fellowshipping that it is a wonderful life when you realize that you are living and operating under GRACE. I love who I am, because I stand up to my fears…the fears of letting other people down because I can’t be who and what they want me to be; the fear of being alone (a fear I didn’t even know I had, but how I dealt with others proved this to me); the fear of failing…Oh boy!
There will always be bills, there will always be someone or something to press our buttons of “concern”, just don’t let the button of “over-concern” be pushed. At the end of the day, we all have our hand to play that life has dealt us, and we cannot pass it off to the next person. Don’t stress others out with your worries and woes. Burning others out with your “stuff” isn’t helpful to you and it will run others away. Go to God. I don’t know about you, but I am tired of doing things that in no way help me or make me feel better. I am done depleting my “good spirit” reserve on others who offer no exchange of equal value. Simply put…I am so over it. I am rocking my New Peace gear and am all revved up for spiritual and financial prosperity. So, when the fire alarms have ceased to ring and your “I gotta do/go/have/make/say…” nerves have chilled out; when the smoke clears… He will be there. Just say thank you, because He is the one who put out the fire with His love, mercy, grace and peace.
Peace, Love and Empowerment to you all!